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18 years.
But.
I am to the point this year, that I really am not grieving it anymore. But, it’s there. What do you do with it? Just let it go by? Nothing said? Like it never existed? Like it isn’t happening?
I hate that things are like they are and not like they should be.
I hate that this day brings a twinge sadness rather than overwhelming joy.
Let me tell you how I survived the first year our anniversary came after he had left us.
I sent out an e-mail, made some phone calls, and invited every lady I could think of to join me for dinner. I reserved the backroom in a local restaurant. And we had a wonderful time, eating, talking, and surviving.
That night will be forever etched in my mind. It brings tears to my eyes when I think about those days, how hard every day was, how hard that day was, and how everyone rallied around me that day.
God is so Good. All the time.
I’ve made it through 3 of these dates now alone, I’ll make it through this one too. I am even going to go have a massage and pamper myself a little bit this afternoon!
Pam
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uhg....
I hope you enjoy your massage, Pam. Glad to see you are still hanging in there...would hate to see where I would be...
God's Blessings on this day!
Pam,
You are such a strong woman & your faith in the Lord is so encouraging. You are so right. God is good...all the time.
Yes, you will get through this one, too. That's because you rely on God. Praise Him!
Enjoy your massage. I'll be thinking of you.
Praying that your massage will be just the thing that brings some joy today, besides your faith, of course.
you know i feel your pain. i am not going to give you any flowery words - enjoy your day as much as you can. scream. cry. laugh. whatever it is that YOU need today.
love ya,
sheryl
Good for you Pam! That is a great idea. I love the idea of having a bunch of women together too.
Smart lady!
Bless you dear,
Beth
I can so relate when you speak of how you reflect on how hard the beginning days, weeks, months were. I remember those firsts and they were hard. I dread my second anniversary without him in April. Three months away and lots COULD happen but still a sense of dread and fear of the emotions.
It was great to talk to you today. I guess we are now "live" friends, aa? hehe
Love the orange and teal!
Love,
Paula
chocolate and coffee!
Praying for you often but especially right now.
came over from You're Gonna Miss This and became a follower after reading a few posts on this blog. You have a contagious faith and I am eager to read more as you continue your journey of obedience to the Lord.
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