One Day

“One Day… you will know the truth and it will make you free.

One Day… I know you’ll surrender and let love in.

Oh, I believe in One Day.”  --Ayiesha Woods

I made this song the first song to come on when you open my blog today.

Do you have someone that this is a prayer for?

I do.

It’s HSSH.

I’ve prayed for him for so long.

It is so hard to keep believing in One Day.

I had a conversation with him last night.  The lies that he believes just keep growing.  I wonder how long…  When does truth break through?  How does truth break through?

Sometimes I feel like “this one” is just too hard. 

I can’t take it any more.

God can’t break him.

If you knew the intimate details of the conversations, decisions, and life choices that my ex-husband has made… 

…would you look at me with pity and say what a shame it all is... all the while thinking in the back of your mind that I am such a poor thing for ever thinking that something could come of this.

…would you tell me that God is the God of impossibilities.  Would you remind me of the story of Daniel, Paul, Mary, Nehemiah, Abraham and Sarah, Noah, David… you know, just about everyone in the Bible…

…would you say that if God said that He was going to restore this family.  He will.

The problem in my mind comes when I start to wonder if my idea of what restoration matches Gods.  I know that my ways aren’t His.

Pray that TRUTH sets HSSH free.

Pray that  TRUTH sets me free.

Pray that TRUTH sets our family free.

Pray that what that looks like brings us all closer to HIM.

I don’t want to stop praying for ""One Day" in HSSH's life... I just don't know how I will survive to that day.  

The gap between today and "One Day" has me thinking...  I'm done.  I'm done playing the game.  I'm done listening to the lies and excuses.  I'm done being a part of it.  Take it away, Dear Jesus.

Why do I bring this up today?  I don't know.  It's on my heart.  My heart that is so very tired of being broken.  My heart that needs her savior to come and set it free.

Pam

Originally Published at You're Gonna Miss This, September 25, 2008